MY LIFE

I must say that I am a very lucky person for being the brother to my three sisters and the son to my parents. My mother, who died almost four years ago, accepted me as I am. My sisters, who used to tease me gay, are very supportive of me. My father, who once was against my sexual preference, has finally recognized me after being a "STRENGTH" to my entire family.

No one has ever thought I am a gay because I don't act one. I don't act one not because I fear the critical eyes of the public but simply because it's what I want myself to be. I am 25 years old and have had 4 official boyfriends. I was 18 when got involved with an 11-years-older-than-me guy. He was very kind and caring. Our relationship, however, petered after 10 months. It didn't work well. It was probably because we were too far from each other. I was a student at UP Los Banos while he was working in Antipolo. It could already be considered a long distance relationship given the fact that I was stuck in Los Banos and who was only dependent on my allowance for a living. I planned to transfer to UP Diliman the following school year which my bestfriend vocally opposed. He didn't want me to leave him. I started working on documents. It didn't push through, however, when we broke up. It was a good decision to stay in Los Banos.

Our separation debilitated me. I couldn't focus, eat, etc. But I made it to survive. Three months later I found a new love. It didn't turn out well. My movements were very restrained because I was merely a student. He was the first guy I introduced to my family. When I came to know him, he just freshly escaped an unsuccessful. Either of us was still in love with our ex's. We counted a few months until we were both accustomed to each other. He was more than 4 years older than me. He, however, had no time for me. He was broke when I got to know him and he really wanted to be somebody. When he got a job, he became very succeessful and his career skyrocketed. Then in December 2005, I gave up on him after 7 months of relationship. I knew it would not move up any further. I was again brokenhearted.

A couple of month later,  I met another guy on the net. He just broke up with a girl which means he was vulnerable. He allowed me to enter his life even though he was a straight guy. He welcomed me to his life. He was so adorable, good-looking, caring and crazy about me (at that time). I was so proud of him. I was still a junior student in college while he was working for Jollibee in Imus at the same time he was a student. I was in bliss. It was a dream come true to have someone as nice as him. Our relationship lasted for 2 years and 11 months; thus we had lots of memories together.


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